Chinese Valentine's Day '06

I just found out today is July 7th on lunar calendar, the Chinese Valentine’s Day! I wonder what my friends in China are doing for celebration. It seems like the traditional festivals are getting more popular right now. It’s definitely a good thing to know.

Ahhh… On Chinese Valentine’s Day, the lovers are supposed to be together and look for stars at night. But…but, my DWTX is at work…>.< Neh…It’s all right! Yesterday in China is July 7th, and I guess Nuilang and Zhinv (The couple in the fairytale) don’t have any sense of time difference between countries (They’ve never gone abroad except Japan maybe). So, C and D were together yesterday. That must count! Plus, Nuilang and Zhinv only meet once a year. C and D meets every weekend so far. So we’re much more lucky, right? I mean RIGHT?! Hhheee…

Sorry that I’m too weird today. It all started with skipping today’s Japanese class. I didn’t mean to do it. I’m a good student. But… somehow my alarm didn’t go off today and I woke up at 11am, instead of 6:30… I guess I really needed that sleep. I hope my teacher is not too mad at me. I’m having an A+ in the class so far. I hope I can keep it that way.

I had a really nice weekend. My huhnee came to Eugene on Friday. Even though I haven’t seen him for only a week, it still took me a while to get use to being “qi fu-ed” (or kuai foo). And of course I couldn’t let him leave when Sunday afternoon comes. I don’t know how long it’ll take me to get use to this “review” and “preview” period every time when we meet. I joked that maybe I’ll be ok with it just few weeks before I graduate and then comes the time when we can be together again. Hho hoo hoo…

Ok, time to have some brunch and water my iris (Do you know in Chinese we call it butterfly flower? ^.^)

SUN 202 on 22nd of July

Few days earlier I turned 22. Even though I can’t really tell the difference between the last day of 21 and the first day of 22, I sort of feel it gives me more reason be mature, more responsible and stronger.


All right, time to report what I’ve been doing in the past few months. After 11 weeks of struggling, the gloomy winter term finally ended. Then, I had a wonderful spring break. My D and I went to Six Flags Magic Mountain in LA. He DROVE there! Sometimes I joke that he treats me too good, like a princess. But really, if I show any sign of desiring for something, even without me noticing it, he’ll try to make it happen. He truly is the source of my happiness. So, we went to the park for two days, played everything we could, and almost threw up there. My D was so qiang! He won a basketball and big toy dog.

Following the wonderful spring break, another 11 weeks of hell hunted me. In spring term, I had a really tough studio professor. The reason why I say he’s tough is because he’s always energetic and passionate about our project. That drove us crazy! I remember my studio had a lot more stuffs to present then the other four studios during the mid-term presentation (and of course the final). But I enjoyed the spring term studio the most! It was my first time to do planning for a large area with multiple buildings. The project is to design a raptor center in Eugene for injured eagles, owls, etc. I started with being completely lost in a four page long program listing all the buildings and services people need in the center. Lucky enough, I ended with a satisfying final presentation. Again, I have to say I couldn’t make it without my D. As usual (umhumhummm…), he stayed up late with me to scan my drawings and lend me his shoulders when I turned into a watermelonCi.

Then, my D graduated from MBA! I was happy and sad at the same time. I’m happy because he accomplished one more step of his plan. He can move forward now with a nice job at Xerox and finding himself a house and so much more. But that also means that I don’t get to see him that often anymore. Last Saturday we moved his stuff to his new apartment in Wilsonville. I turned into watermelon so many times. I wasn’t worrying about anything bad would happen though. It’s just I’ve had to be in a situation where I need to say goodbye to my loved ones so many times ever since my dad went to work in Malaysia when I was 8. I remember that time I could only spend one month with him in a year. When he’s home I was so happy, and when he was gone, I felt my world just collapsed. Right now I have that same sort of feeling except I know after I graduate in two years, we’ll be together again. Plus, we’ll meet on weekends. Everything will be just fine.

Two weeks later I’ll go back to Beijing, my real home. It’s supper hot in Eugene right now and it’s even hotter in Beijing. But when I go home, there’ll be air-conditioner waiting for me. Ha! Wish everyone enjoy the summer!

昨日、今日、明日

Can’t believe I haven’t touched my blog for four month. If it wasn’t my little sis in Taiwan reminded me that I was gone for too long, I almost forgot that writing was once something I enjoyed.

So, being away for such a long time, I don’t even know where to start my story again. I guess I’ll just ramble for now. I’m pretty good at that. It’s mid-night, almost 1 o’clock. I’ve got a Japanese class at 8 in the morning. And I have to wake up at 6 to prepare for my oral performance. But my brain nerves are all getting sensitive (come on, not again…it’s mid-night!). I wonder if there’s any medicine to just kill my brain for a while. It’s really working too much, thinking about and getting stuck with things that I’m uncertain about. Have you ever have that feeling, getting so frustrated with going back and forth between different judgment and decisions and don’t know which way to go. It’s like never being able to find a balance between Yin and Yang.

When I’m getting sensitive, I like to dig through old things, pictures, writings, morning notes, emails and the “hard drive” in my brain. I’m not sure what I’m looking for. But every time when I go through the procedure I find something new. For example, I read some of my old post. Probably 8 out of 10 were depressing. I sure had lots of fun during the school year, but nothing was recorded. Too many negative things blinded my vision and mind. What happened to me? I have no idea… Oh, and I read all my old emails (again)… I found that the first email D wrote me was really interesting. Why? Because he didn’t use any capital letter in the mail. Was it his habit or was he just too lazy to type a more serious email… well, who knows… it’s just something interesting to notice.

I think looking back to what I’ve been through isn’t a bad thing, even though it might be too much sometimes and too detailed. First of all, that proves I have a really good memory. It’s a gift, not craziness! And then, it helps me to find my weaknesses. Everyone has problems. The winner/survivor is the one that can face the problem and deal with it. Looking forward on the path of life is important. But that doesn’t mean I should run away whenever I’m in trouble. I understand that no one is perfect. We all make mistakes and have disappointment sometimes. I’m just trying to live my life in the best way I can so I won’t regret about anything in the end. Even on freeways, there’s traffic jam sometimes. The road of life might have all kinds of cracks and bumps; yet we still need to make ourselves run through it. May God lead me to wherever he wants me to go. I know he will light up my path ahead.