Is it Friday yet?

Everyday feels like Monday to me. I have to keep a high energy level to work on those endless architecture projects. There’s never one day I can go home right after I finish my classes. There’s always team meeting after school and it would go on and on till 6 or 7pm.

However, each day, my body is at the status of Friday after-school time. I’m always sleepy and worn out. I drag my body to school everyday with a negative energy level. I see my classmates come to studio with dark eye bags. I guess everybody is struggling. That kind of makes me feel better. At least I’m not alone on the way of being a crazy architect.

I’m so melancholy and impatient lately. I don’t think it’s because of the weather since it hasn’t really started to rain all day long yet. I’m just simply too stressed out by those projects and tests. I keep having nightmares with the bad memories of my family. Every time when I wake up in the morning, I’m always sweating. I can’t concentrate very well during classes because I’m too sleepy. Like today, my Japanese class GTF noticed that I was falling asleep and therefore kept asking me questions to keep me awake. It was so embarrassing that I couldn’t remember how to write the word “思” in front of the class because it’s actually part of my name. The GTF kind of laughed at me “don’t you remember how to write your own name?” At that moment, I really wanted to grab a chair and knock his head off.

Ok, it’s getting late again. SLEEP! But before that, here’re some things I need to take care of:
-Stop eating that pop tarts so quickly. I eat more sweet things when I’m stressed. Ehhh… If I don’t have time to work out, don’t take that much junk into my body.
-I need to be more gentle to people. I always imagine twisting people’s head off if they make me feel uncomfortable. One of my classmate in the Japanese class said I look so scary today.
-Find something fun to do this weekend (sleeping?! Ehhh???). Absolutely NO project Friday night! I should do something for myself, such as practicing piano or drawing cartoon. I hate doing things that I have to do, like finishing a task on my schedule. I want to live my life more naturally.
-I want to hang out with my DWTX more. I feel we just say ‘hello’ and ‘good night’ to each other everyday. Ya, we live really close by and see each other everyday. And it’s really just “see” each other everyday. But… whatever… I don’t really know what I want. I’m busy all the time. I’m either working or sleeping in my room. Fortunately, he has a computer game he spends most of his free time with. He seems enjoying it very much. I don’t know.... I really miss last year when we can go out to do something and just forget about the rest of stuffs that we need to do. Hum…Whatever…