Random 2

I have about an hour before the next class. After checking emails and serving websites (all that routine you do when you get online), I still have 45 mins to spend. Actually I've only spent about 5 mins to check all my email accounts. No one sent me email except the department office's secretary. She's never tired of sending us emails about all the lectures and activities in School of ARCH. So I decided to write another random post, just to waste the time. "Woo...she's got time to waste. She must be so free and relaxed" you might think. Heck NO! This may be the only 45 minutes free time I have for today, besides eating and sleeping. I've got tons of projects and readings to do, but I just don't want to do it NOW! I wonder, if I keep doing homework one after another like a robot, how long I can make it. I think I would definitely go crazy before the sun goes down.

Sometimes I think architects are like fortunetellers. Fortunetellers never really know what's in your future. They make up something and make you believe it. The work of architects is a process of researching the past/present, predicting the future and then creating a habitat that they think is good for human beings. The architects have to be good predictors and planners. When they design buildings, they need to think about what it's going to be like in the future 50-100 years. They create and change human life patterns. Don't believe me? Well, think about how many times you had to adjust your living habit in order to fit into a new physical environment. You finally got use to the new habit, which means the architecture changed you. And most of the time you're not bounded to one environment. If you don't like the crappy work of one architect, you look for another one, or at least do something to improve the situation. For example, you just started sharing an apartment with another person after staying alone for a long time, you felt so weird because your freedom and privacy is taken away. Now you can't throw your clothes everywhere on the floor or do whatever you like in the house anymore. All your space is restricted into that little tiny room you get. But then, you figured out maybe everything is really not that bad. Just close the door or maybe even put a sign on it when you feel you're exposed too much to the public. You also start to adjust your schedule and try to have more freedom and relaxing time while the other person is in absence. In a small scale, you got your freedom/privacy back. And you need to tell yourself that this situation is contemporary. Once you finish your school and move to another place (I'm referring to college student), you're out in that wild world, doing whatever you want again. At that time, you'll have bunch of other new environment you need to fit into. But at last you know that you're going back to that old crappy place anymore.

In the process of being trained to be a professional architect, sometimes I found the working habit is a little bit too overwhelming for me. By that I mean I always want to figure out what's going to happen beforehand and make a plan for the future. But life has too many variables and uncertainties. It's really hard for me to just keep going without knowing the directions. I think most of the source of my depression or disappointment comes from that fact that the real life doesn't fall onto my plan and there's no way for me to be that flexible, unless I don't care about myself and my life. Maybe my personality is telling me that there's no other job as suitable for me as being an architect. We live in dreams.

All right. This post is turning to look like an essay. It's time to go to class now. Another busy days (after school) is knocking on my door. I heard it's coming...