不详的预兆

I have this weird feeling that an “earthquake” is coming soon. I don't know when it’s going to attack me, or what its damage level will be. What I know for sure is that I need to find myself a shelter this time. I won’t sit there and watch myself being tortured anymore. I keep telling myself that I’m not bounded to any disaster. I can walk away anytime I want. I shouldn’t care too much about the tradition. I should only stand for what I believe and what makes me happy. I need to learn to be selfish sometimes.

Well, maybe the words make you confused. Here’s what’s happening. We’re going to a dinner tonight. It’s not that kind of fancy business-family dinner between working partners. Quoting my mother’s words, we’re going to have dinner with some trashy people. Right, she never like any of my father’s working partner, especially when one of them is a woman. It’s a long story, I can’t write about it using few words. Anyways, mother hates father socializing with “trashy people”, while father complains that mother forced him losing his friends. The problem is just that easy. Mother is too sensitive and father is too not-sensitive.

I have a secrete… a secrete only to my parents…

I wish they never met 25 years ago. I wish they never born me. Well, if that sounds like dream talking, here’s a more realistic thought – they should DIVORCE. If their marriage brings them so much pain, why should they still be together? Is it only the family reputation that they’re trying so hard to protect? That’ll be the funniest joke and biggest tragedy I’ve ever seen. And I’m part of it.

Well, maybe I’m too serious. But if the battle starts, I’m going to drop my nuclear bomb!

P.s. My phone rang today. Hhooo… I was so happy. Thanks to modern technology, I never feel so far away from my sandpaper-D^^