Woo.. so.. hum.. I'm really leaving...
Everything has been packed into boxes, bags, and my luggage. I feel so weird, it's "don't know how to react" kind of weird feeling. I remember last summer, I didn't have any hesitation to jump into the airplane and go home. I just wanted to run away from this place. But this year, I have something (and someone) important on both side of my journey. And I just don't know which side I'm more willing to be on. Where did my excitement go? Wasn't I so eager about the food, the air-conditioning, the beach, and family?
But, I hate to count it like... the last meal, the last phone call, the last time checking email, the last "goodbye", the last hug... I've been having this kind of "last" experience since I was 12, but I would never get use to it. Actually the more I have it, the more I hate it. When can I be settled down and not have to travel between places for getting the feeling of being home. I think that's going to take quite some time. I have to learn to give up things I used to have and looking for things that are more suitable for my life right now. I don't mean to forget about my family and hometown because that's my root. But, we say that we can't get the bear's foot and the fish at the same time. I'll have to put them in the bottom of my heart, and build up a life that belongs to myself.
Alright, time to go to sleep. I have only 5 hours to sleep.. Night night~
1 comment:
Jiayou, yay!
You have people on both sides of the ocean who care about you and who think you are special. So, you are unique in that because of this you can call both places "home".
Hang in there and I'll see you soon. Enjoy your time at home!
DWTX
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