Nightfall KL

I haven’t written anything these days, because everything seems the same from Monday to Sunday. I open my eyes every morning, thinking, “Alright, it’s another ‘yesterday’ or ‘the day before yesterday’”. I repeat doing the same things everyday like a robot following its program. But, maybe I should think that my life is more organized this way.

Today before 6pm, I was in my ‘program’ as usual. I practiced piano, watched TV, went to the gym… Then I decide to break the routine. I rushed back to my room and put on my swimsuit. Even though the sunshine was still dancing crazily outside, I jumped into the swimming pool without any hesitation. “Aaahhhh…” the water was cool enough to wake me up from the heat. I did several laps and then just flow on the water to enjoy the late afternoon. The nightfall in KL is really beautiful, like a piece of artwork. It’s too bad that my camera couldn’t catch the color correctly. Everything was dyed with golden tone. I remember the sunset in Eugene is purple. Here in KL, things look more alive during nightfall.

Somehow, many memories came back to me when I was in the pool, good and bad ones. Then I felt it’s really nice to be alive. I knew this sounds weird, but really, when I thought about what I’ve experienced, I became more curious about what would happen to me in the future. I’ve always got hope, because I was all time curious-Ci. There were definitely downtimes and I’ve been really lost and frustrated. But life always goes on, no matter if I like it or not. After going through difficulties, I got more energy and confidence. Even if I failed, I knew I tried my best.

So, there’s nothing I can’t go through. It’s the matter of whether I want to try to face it. I’m not saying that I’m able to do everything. I just don’t want to regret about opportunities and possible success I missed when I have to close my eyes forever. And I know that there’re many people- my family, my close someone, my friends care about me and support me. They are my treasure for taking this life journey.

I like one sentence my high school English teacher told me, “We all started with zero. So we have nothing to loose. Whatever happens to you, you’re always gaining.”

Just some random thoughts… really random…